I’ve been in a funk recently, and that is not something I’m trying to hide. I have always appreciated the therapeutic benefits of writing, and that is what I plan to do today. If this blog post sounds all over the place, please bare with me. Normal posts will resume Thursday.
As someone who has suffered from social anxiety, I have always treasured the art of writing. Growing up with a journalist father, I remember watching him type away on a keyboard, always working on a story. Sometimes when I’m speaking, the words don’t come out right and it can be frustrating. But with writing, I have all the time I need to properly form a sentence that conveys my point. While my society anxiety and shyness have taken dramatic strides through my lifetime, and most people probably wouldn’t even notice, it can still be difficult.
But, there are times that even words I write are not able to properly convey my feelings.
Recently, a former professor of mine, who I considered a mentor, passed away. She introduced me to dozens of things, including social change and policy, which has become my intended future career field. She had a way of motivating and inspiring every person she met, and she was able to recognize things in others that they weren’t able to see in themselves. She constantly challenged me to move out of my comfort zone, as she did with everyone. She was loved, adored, and cherished by many, and her loss is devastating. Even though she was incredibly busy, and suffered for most of last year with health issues, she still sent me a birthday card last July. I remember how touched I was by this tsmall token of kindness. If you’re ever considering sending a thank you letter, birthday card, or just a small token of appreciation, don’t hesitate. Life is short, and that is a lesson you will learn throughout your lifetime.
On a completely unrelated note, I’ve also been a little overwhelmed by the emotions occupying my final semester of college. Well, at least the final semester for now. I’m anxious about getting a job and not knowing what I’ll be doing in a few short months. I’m also excited for the next chapter. At the same time, I’m sad that many of my close friends will be packing their bags, and we won’t be in the same proximity after this semester.
Lastly, things have seemed a little bleak from a national and international standpoint recently. As someone who is incredibly interested in politics, it is hard for me to not be emotionally invested in the current political climate of our country. I will not say much here, but if you’re unsatisfied with the way things are currently going, and I see the distaste across social media, you have options. Call your elected officials, volunteer on a campaign, vote in 2018 — even if you haven’t been active in politics before, now is the time to make your voice heard.
Today, I decided to be upfront and honest, because everyone goes through times like these. I’ve learned, in college more than ever, it is important to acknowledge these feelings and take care of yourself. If you’re feeling down, don’t try to push the feelings away. Take a break, relieve stress by doing things you enjoy, or talk to someone, if you’re feeling seriously upset.